AND I THOUGHT I WAS BEHIND...

this is the low-down: i know a girl who's repeating her year at design school. thinking that she'd had a major turn around from her (down right lazy ass) work ethic last year, i agreed to model for her again this year. how could i have been so wrong?!

i watched in envy, as her class mates paraded their stunning creations past us in the hallway, and into the marking room where the lecturers were waiting. all i could do was look down in embarrassment at our prototype dresses that were held together with pins. (she left it to the last minute and didn't have time for zips).

you could feel the tension in the room by her lecturers. they had the classic 'oh here we go again' looks of disapproval on their faces. it was unpleasant to say the least.

i just wanted to strangle her. i don't actually know why the hell she's doing this course. here i go sounding like a bitch again but i'm not holding back. i can say what i want on here.

ok, when i think of fashion design, i think of project runway. i don't think she has watched a series... ever. she has no style. not as in sense of style, as in style full stop. she's one of those people that would be in the room with others and no-one would even realise she was present. (sounds sad, but it's true). she is lovely, yes. she is a 'good girl' by traditional island standards. but really, really, bland.

i know that not all fashion designers are out there, flamboyant, and loud but even the quiet ones have a strong sense of self/personality/character.

i don't wanna model anymore. i wanna model her colluges collections hahaha my day began bad, and even tho it didn't get worse, it didn't pick up either. look i've just totally rambled. sorry.

anyways, what i've learned today is that i want to go hard out for my final assignment (haven't done anything on it today tho) and i do not want to enter a lecturer critique and start of by saying- "oh yea, umm.. it's not finished yet..." i am not impressed with her, and i don't like that she's proving that islanders are an underclass with her lack of enthusiasm and carelessness for her work. retard. that's what she is. a friggin' retard.