*UPDATE* THE GOOD, THE BAD & THE UGLY...

G:i love my new day job as a teacher aide!!
B: the kids i work with hardly every turning up to school
U: their families bringing their issues into the classroom

G: pay day when working 2 jobs
B: not getting paid from 1 job this wk
U: 2.5% gst increase

G: celebrating friend-boys birthday this weekend
B: not realizing it's a family tradition for every person to say a little something about the birthday person & having a really crap speech haha
U: gaining weight from all the food i've eaten over the weekend

G: getting my hair did!
B: chipping my newly polished nails
U: beautician still in brazil & friendboy having a heart attack at my hairiness

G: vodafone's free calls to 021's & landlines if you top up this month
B: only realizing towards the end of this month
U: people's answer phone messages

G: wearing jeans to school every day
B: having to wake up at 6.45am week days
U: catching the same bus as my little sisters ex-boyfriend

G: TREY SONGZ opening for usher in nz march 29!!!
B: one of my younger brothers already having tickets
U: telling everyone i'm going to buy the meet & greet tickets.. and not actually having any money to do so

G: all the kids at the ghetto school i teach at owning air max, or air jordans or nike hi tops
B: some of the kids at the ghetto school i teach at not having lunch on a regular basis
U: most of the kids at the ghetto school i teach at having eczema

G: the other flatmate we didn't like moving out
B: meeting the dude he's replacing himself with & realizing he's sort of a douche
U: the high probability that we will grow to dislike the new guy very soon

G: winning "best dressed" at our work party last weekend
B: not being able to find my party feet for my 5" heels, but braving it anyway
U: trying to stick up for a particular workmate getting shit faced when everyone decided they hated him

G: dropping my macbook once & it being alright
B: dropping my macbook twice because i though i knew better than my friendboy
U: dropping my macbook a third time & now it makes a weird whirring noise when i turn it on :(

BREAKING POINT...

yesterday i was having one of those ugly days.. you know when you just aren't feelin' it no matter what clothes you pull out of the closet or what products you use to make you smell or look good?? you just feel like a big fat dumpy hobo. i had a shitty day at work, and was close to tears after afew encounters but of course i hate when people cry so i was not going to do that it public.. not even hanging up on the customer, giving the fingers to my computer screens & saying "fuck you" very loudly made me feel better.

i came home and the friend boy knew something was up but i was far too embarrassed to admit to my shallowness and say that i was feeling ugly and it was the worlds fault for breeding beautiful people. or more like the media's fault for selling the fantasy.. (of course i'm not gonna admit i'm partly to blame for buying into it.)

he encouraged me to try and fix my gloomyness (is that a word?) so i washed my hair, shaved my legs and... nope still didn't fix how i was feeling. this morning i got up and went to get my eye brows threaded and... nope that wasn't the problem either. i ended up returning home, ordering hellz pizza & garlic bread and then eating it in bed while i surfed the net.

while surfing i found miss keri's new music video and even though i'd love to hate her i'm pretty sure it's a sign for me to go to the goddamn hairdressers because i'm sure my problem areas are a) my head and b).. my beautician went home to brazil for 6wks and i missed my appointment with the stand-in beautician so i'm hanging out for her to return to the country to de-fuzz me lolz

i'm pretty sure life will pick up from there. here's hoping.. in the meantime, things to look forward to: friend boy is taking me out on a "dinner & movies" date that HE is paying for all by himself because he now has a job & got paid. this double income thing i'm totally liking. i've never been to the movies in wellington so that's pretty cool.

moral of the story is- i love keri hilson and she told me to go get a hair cut. the end.

BAD HAIR DAY? NO, MORE LIKE SHIT HAIR MONTH...

not even my straightner is helping.. (i actually think it's broken). my keri hilson hair has long gone. i can't remember the last time i got a good cut. well, since i've been back in nz anyway. it's dry, fly-away, dull and just plain yuck at the moment.. so i've been in search of a good hairdresser here that won't cost a kidney. more difficult than it seems because everyone has a kidney to spare in order to have good hair.



seeing as me and reese look so alike (LMAO) i thought i'd suit her current hairstyle. it basically looks like how i always have my hair haha but me likey..



and seeing as i have a job that pays well i thought i'd get it colored professionally again instead of kidding myself that my at home job looks just as good as salon job hahahaha i'm liking kim k's bob colour. start to lighten it for summer.. i miss my blonde hair! :P

anyone willing to donate organs or limbs in order for me to get my hair "did" please holla at ya girl lolz

Being "So Kodak" - artists perspective

ON A LIGHTER NOTE..

i bought some new summer nail colours.. i'm liking this "coral me wild" from revlon.. once i re-do mine i'll post them up ('coz you know my workmanship is waaay better than this!)..

our work party is the weekend after next the theme obviously being red&black, so i bought some "riviera red" by rimmel.. the sticker said 'new maxi brush - mistake free application'. you know i was into that lolz and it only cost $11.95.. unlike my revlon one that set me back $17.95! lolz



finally updated my black eye shadow 'coz i've had it for over a year (i know- yuck..) i think you're meant to replace your eye make up (or make up in general) every 3 months? i tried out the new black galaxy eye shadow the weekend just past for k.fizz' bf's house warming.. it was ok.



i miss my face shop eyeshadow [Color Nuance BK903] that i bought last year while i was living in vietnam though.

SOMETHING TO BLOG ABOUT..

is definitely not kids.. but i'm going to do it anyway, because just like an annoying little kid who is throwing a tantrum at the supermarket and you just wish their parent would slap them, this subject had been in the back of my mind- (annoying me and i'm looking around for someone to slap it to shoosh and go away) lolz

so yesterday i found out on the wonderful world of crackbook (aka facebook..) get it? it's as addicitve as crack.. (says she who has actually never been under the influence of crack, let alone touched or seen it any shape of form). where was i going with this.. oh yea! crackbook right.

yesterday i found out that not only was my cousins gf pregnant, but she had the kid yesterday. i wasn't sure if i should be sad at the fact that everyone neglected to tell me she was expecting and i found out randomly via social networking about something quite significant, or that now i'm the last one standing in our "crew" (my cousins and i were all tight growing up together). as in, i'm childless (their sister, who was banished from our crew because she was way too girly & who is younger than me has like, 3 kids!)

does no-one bother with contraception these days? is it out of sheer lazyness? are people that desperate that they go to the extream and have a "keep a nigga baby"? or do they actually wanna do this whole parenting thing right now?

i did the little crackbook stalk and clicked through the photos and shuddered. am i bad person for that? hmm. most probably. but i couldn't help but be grossed out coz the kid was all wrinkly and shit & had all these tubes coming outta it's face & had all these wires attatched to its hands and feet and chest. i was also grossed out at the fact that i'm pretty sure that this kid was a keep a nigga baby and in all honesty i highly doubt that my cousin would most probably not change is "playa" ways.

i couldn't help but think "what a waste", considering not only was his gf incredibly hot, but she was also really smart.. however incredibly dumb for still being with him. when will people get the message that having a kid does not provide any type of solution to a failing relationship? it actually adds to it times a zillion.. stupid asses!

then it got me thinking to my close friends from high school. once again i was the only childless one. on our road trip i could finally contribute to the conversations about our "partners" *shudder* (i loathe using that word.. it's like for 40yr olds who aren't married lmao) but i had nothing to contribute when the topic turned to "he's such a great dad.." & "my son/daughter does this.." did i feel left out? HELL NO! but i definitly felt that i was not ready for kids right now.

my engaged friend was asking all sorts of questions to my married friend (and the one who's wedding we had road tripped to vegas for) in regards to planning the wedding, do's and don'ts, change in the relationship after the ceremony etc etc etc.. and even though i'd be lying if i said i don't even wanna get engaged or married one day (the concept is very nice according to tv & the movies i watch lolz) i really don't feel i'm ready for that either.

am i missing out? perhaps. however, i don't think so. it's all very nice going to other peoples baby showers, engagement parties, & weddings. but i feel that when i eventually get to that stage (whenever that may be) i know i will do it bigger and better than everyone who did it before me. (sorry.. but it's true) lolz. i'm learning from your mistakes.. (thank you for making them!)

for now i'm pretty content with where i'm at (even though this year has not gone to plan... understatment of the century!) it's showed me that in adverse times i'm able to get through the bullshit that life has to throw at me. for the moment my friend boy & i will enjoy every expensive meal that comes our way hahaha kids? hell no! not right now. there's too much i have to do.