YOU SHOULD BE CONDEMNED TO DEATH...

crocs on the red carpet? gary coleman, are you serious? dude looks like literally stepped outta his garden and turned up to an event. i saw this and thought of j.skywalker immediately. she hates crocs more than i do hahahaha

WE NEED TO TALK...

we are both totally caught up in one another hahaha

we had the el-serious-o convo last night. i actually started it, (i know that is so unlike me!) and i spoke honestly for once! i even used the words "obsitnate" and "perspicacious". (i know, i'm suuuuucha geek hahaha)

and to my suprise, his reply was geniune, on point, (and so sweet!) where to from here? i'm still not sure, but we were able to call each other and talk like normal after an hour of spilling out our guts to one another haha.

i've never been so taken by anyone like this before. it's a strange sensation, yet incredibly exciting. however, i am still treading carefully because it's all new and i don't know what i what exactly.

so yea, that's that. we've turned from musiq soulchild's "halfcrazy" into his "newness" song hahaha (don't have it on youtube so meh)

the end!

I THINK WE'RE GONNA END UP LIKE THIS...

i love you musiq soulchild! but seriously, this is the most depressing song haha and unfortunately for me, i'm think that we're gonna end up like this. i just want my friend back.

HE TOLD ME TO WATCH THIS...

and now i have a problem. i just apologized to him and i was actually honest for once. and now he's replying and i feel like throwing up because i think i put too much of myself out there. now i think, he thinks, it's ok to be honest and/or deep & meaningful with me. it's not.

i wish i'd shut my mouth and things were like they used to be. fun, easy, not serious. what did i just do? what was i thinking? i've already been told not to go there, but no, didn't listen. if this fucks up, i really am the only one to blame, i think.

bring on the awkwardness between us from now on. damit.

THE QUICK ARE THE DEAD...

so they say.

it was too much, too soon.
i knew that but as usual, chose to ignore it.
now... now i got the "we need to talk" line. ohhhhhh noooooooz. i'm the WORST when i've gotta be serious. i hate serious talks. i will screw it up, so that if there were to be a second chance, i would've ruined it by being a dick during the talk. it's just how i do. it's easier to laugh and joke about shit, than be mature about it. it saves from my feelings getting hurt, and even though they get hurt coz i'm being an asshole and just laughing it off, it's easier for me to do that, than hurt them for reals.

what a crappy way to begin the week.

and once again, here i am waiting for an email.
not good.

TARANAKI HARDCORE... PFFFFT

i found this gold on my friends facebook after she'd gone to hawera for a shapeshifter gig.. this shit doesn't usually happen in nz. it happens in other far away places. but then again, new plymouth sorta is far away...

99 PROBLEMS AND SOME-ONE ELSES STYLE IS ONE...

so my cousin emailed me to ask if i could find him "a style". i laughed, and thought he was joking. (i've been asked the question before by other people) and my answer has always been- "um NO". without hesitation, without a second thought. and that was that.

but this dude is for real. like, for real, for real. (i don't know why repeating it makes me feel like i'm getting my point across, but it does haha) like, he almost low-key laid it down as a challenge and me being me, never backs down from a challenge. so i stupidly said, "ok then."

he tried to re-assure me i had made the right decision (when i know i haven't) and tried to butter me up by saying, "oh yea, 'coz everyone says you're real stylish" blah blah blah. i already know that. i don't need anyone elses approval haha i dress good, the end. hahahaha

how can you teach someone else how to do swag? that is just... just... just not right. lolz

now i've got jay-z's verse in t.i's swagger like us floating around my head, especially the lines-

"but i can't teach you my swag
you can pay for school- but you can't buy class
school of hard knocks, i'm a grad"

i have to make this right, because if i fail (which isn't even an option haha) that is the end of my life as i know it lmao. seriously though, if i get this wrong, how can i go 'round using my "99 problems but style ain't one" tagline? i'd be like those island church girls- a HYPOCRITE!!! hahahahaha

wish me luck, and i'll keep you posted.

I WANNA BE WITH YOU FOREVER... STARFISH LOVES YOU!!!

oh man, i totally peed my pants with excitement when i found the final installment of charlie the unicorn! it's just the end that's really sad lolz

the creator of charlie the unicorn is right up there with the creator of summer heights high. i don't wanna go as far saying they're cooler than jesus but... they're pretty close hahaha

enjoy, and beware- don't wake the ooh moo!

I'M DYING!!

ewww look at my leg hickey HAHAHA some litt;e bastard of an insect bit me 2 nights ago and this is the result. YUCK.

*SHRUGS SHOULDERS...*

ok this is why i totally don't get christian people.

so i was chatting to my cousin on-line and he mentioned that him & his mate were in training to be youth leaders at their church. and i was like "OMG are you serious? who the hell are the leaders now?" and he named 3 people that when i used to go to that youth group were like, the babies and we all were like, this is for high-school kids, NOT primary school kids (and kinda hated on them haha) anyways, they're in their 2nd year of uni now and apparently leading the church youth. (sort of a big deal when you're an islander... but nothing i ever aspired to do!)

anyways, i was i thought to myself wtf? and my cousin was like, "yup, great youth leaders, great drinking buddies, great all rounders really" and i was just like ummm is it just me, or does anyone else see what is wrong with this picture??? how can you be all preachy preachy to the youth on a friday night, and then go out and get fucked up on saturday night? (or even that night)

this is why i get edgy when it comes to people and their faith. i think it's a personal thing ya know? i mean, all power to you for what you do and don't believe in. but keep it to yourself. know what i mean? like, don't go round saying how to be a good christian etc etc etc if you're known to get shit faced every weekend on cruisers (yes, they're those girls i ranted about before lmao), dance slutty on table tops, and wear trashy clothes thinking you're hott, and root all the boys.

i don't understand how you can LEAD when:
a) you act like fucken dicks when you drink,
b) can't handle your alcohol
c) LIE to your parents about your weekend activities (i mean seriously, i can't believe the "we're having a DVD weekend" excuse that works time and time again)

i could be wrong, but these aren't very christian morals/vaules and you're meant to be LEADING young, influential teens to head in the 'right direction' or whatever?! sorry, but i am TOTALLY not down with this ish.

this is why i am eternally greatful that i wasn't raised in a corrupt island church (LMAO) white is right- go the catholics! hahaha

THERE'S A HOLE IN MY CEILING...

so i thought they handy men would just replace the light bulb that wasn't working. but no, they've taken a big mutha fukn chunk outta my bathroom ceiling. from my understanding, it will all be put back together by thursday. i could be wrong, but with all the hand gestures and payment, that's what i got from out conversation.

IT ONLY HAPPENS...

i still prefer the original done by renee geyer, but this was a nice too. accounts are half way done. can't wait 'till they're completely done. and i'm waiting for an email that i said in my previous post that i don't care about ever getting again. DAMIT hahaha

SUNDAY MASS...

i've decided that i am gonna make an effort to go to EVERY SINGLE sunday morning mass while i'm here. not only because people seem truly genuine in their faith and it feels like jesus actually exists for once, but because incredibly hot french, spanish & european guys all go hahahaha i almost had to stay and go to confession after mass today for all the impure thoughts i was having about the french guy who sat in front of me DAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA if he's there again next sunday, i'm actually gonna sit next to him lmao i think god really does love me and wants be to be happy during mass by supplying me with such hott eye candy (with super sexy accents)

stay tuned!

MINGE BLEEDING...

this was so disturbing that i had to share it.

THE HUNDREDS NZ CONNECTION...

i was going thru my daily routine of checking out the hundreds blog and i saw this photo. i was like "wow, i thought you could only get those in nz..." and found myself missing home for a split second. then i read the caption that tells me how they folk @ THSF know some kiwis that are known as the qubic folk. hmmm interesting. one day, when i finally get to the hundredsfall store in LA (i'll probs be like, 85 by then haha) i will actually take along a box of timtams and show them how to do the timtam slam, and hopefully become life long friends with someone... probs the homeless man outside dahahahaha

INBOX (1)

he emailed me back. haha.

THE HELLACA,,,

i can't help but love the hundreds... i want a leather jacket like this.

IT'S ALL COMING BACK TO ME... ALBIET SLOWLY, BUT HEY IT'S TRICKLING IN...

shit like this got me outta bed in the mornings... i hated researching theorists. i hate to admit it, but having that background knowledge really does make a difference.

check out wooster collective for more. i'm having fun on this site!! i'm getting me some cans when i get back home... now i just have to find something political i wanna say something about.

I SAID... AND HE SAID...

i told him i'd washed my hands of the photography industry. he told me it was time to get my hands dirty again...

i don't know why i'm waiting around for him to email, because i said i wasn't gonna like him like that, but i've found myself checking my inbox every 5 minutes haha. not cool man! i'm acting like those extreamly desperate "why hasn't he replied yet?" girls that i always mock.

but underneath all our friendly banter (yes, i just used the word "banter) and sarcastic jokes, we low-key send sorta deep & meaningfuls to each other. how gaybo can you get? hahaha

anyways, he's got me thinking about what i used to get my creative juices flowing. (there is NOTHING subliminal or dirty about that comment lmao) i'm having trouble remembering. i just enjoyed waking up and knowing i was going to school to see my friends and have the choice of a dutch or dunedin hot chocolate. and on good money days, sweet chilli pasta for lunch.

i love street art. is that enough? maybe i'll buy a canvas and spray a straight line across it, hand it over to him to hang up above his fire place and say it's conceptual pop art hahahaha

i miss the days of framing art work you did at primary school. and when you handed it over to people, they thought it was a master piece and didn't ask what my ideaology behind it was, because you just drew/painted whatever the teacher told you to.

RAINY SEASON IS UPON US...

there is something seriously sensual about the rain here. i was a little pissy at first, but then there is nothing like sitting on the back of a motor cycle and whizzing through puddles. with the wind in my hair, and being soaked right to the bone, i had a really great day today, considering i was moaning about getting my hair wet in my previous post.

on the family gossip side, one of my favourite auntys has dis-owned one of my cousins (who used to be one of my favourites) but i had a change of heart when i found out that he did a chris breezy/rih rih to his current girlfriend, more than once (so she's off my list too, for being stupid enough for staying with him) i mean WTF? there is no excuse to hit [beat to a pulp] a girl who is 3 times smaller than you!!! i don't care if you saw your dad to your mum all your life (that was the excuse that my cousins [still faves] gave me for his behaviour0 and i was like, "hello! you saw the same thing and have you EVER laid a hand on any of your past girlfriends, current babys mama, and fiance?" ...they had no come back for that.

rumour has it that he bought another girlfriend (he has 3) to meet the family, and my aunty told her straight up that he was a player and the chick stupidly told my cousin, who returned to my auntys and went ballistic at her. she actually had to be admited to hospital. and so she dis-owned him and he said all this shit to her (infront of her kiddies, who are 4 & 5) which i just can't believe that he is stupid enough to say because she practically raised the boy herself.

all i can say is that when i move to samoa, i will most definitely be staying far far away from him. (difficult to do on sucha small island) but i will do my best to avoid him at all costs. it pretty much sucks, because i was looking forward to kicking it with him while i was there, seeing as we all grew up together and were (until i found out about his abusive side) really tight.

i even heard that he gave one of his girlfriends a hiding IN FRONT of other people. that shit is disgusting. i'm not saying that doing it in private is acceptable, but not having any shame of doing it in front of others? what the hell is his problem? he must really hate women. like reeeeeeeeeeally hate them. so of course i feel uncomfortable in his presence, nothing will be the same anymore. as for the girls who keep going back. he sure knows how to pick them. they all either a) have really good jobs or b) studying law/medicine, have their own cars, and flats, intelligent girls, that are polite, and respectful to all the older aunties, and all are gorgeous. but there has got to be something seriously fucked up with them if they sort of know about each other, and put up with the beatings.

anyways, just when i was going on about there nothing to blog about, people in my life go and fuck up and i get to write about it haha peace!

SLAVE TO THE SOCIAL NETWORKS...

guilty as charged!!! seriously, i have no time to blog anymore because i'm always on facebook (addicted to sorority life), twitter (updating people who don't really give a shit about my real life) and bebo (because i'm noisy at what is happening in everybody elses life). and blog? my blog gets the back seat to it all hahaha

also because i started it up to just rant about my mother and about school. i don't miss the school work hellz no! what i miss is, talking shit in the mac labs, getting up to have a coffee break every time someone arrived, making up excuses to go drinking etc etc etc.

i solved my "mommy issues" by moving far far away from her. i would've preferred to have sat down and laid out all my cards on the table with her and talk our shit through, but she doesn't like confrontation and just completely shuts down. it's better not to waste my breath. (sad, but true.) i'm don't even have any feelings of anger or regret against her. i just feel nothing. i'm not sure which is worse. being really fucked off at someone, or being emotional-less. (is that a word? haha 'coz it is now)

i'm not even feeling much for "he who shall not be named" either, because i think i've come to a conclusion that he also has issues (what is it with me and people with issues? lolz) and there's no point in wasting my time on that kinda shit. what lead to this epiphany? meeting my cousins flat mate who i kiiiiiiiiiiiinda think i could possibly like in the teeny tiniest way after meeting him once haha

it's most definitely not a crush, it's... i don't know what it is but i'll figure it out when i return home before i go to samoa. he really is not my type, because he breaks all the rules i have in what i look for in guys. like, he's shorter than me (when we're both wearing jandals lolz), and he's an islander from a big city in nz that, once i hear guys a from AND what school they went to, i'm like hellz no will you even make it on my top 100 list hahahaha oh yea, and he's like 3 or 4 yrs younger than me too.

but... he's really intelligent haha and he makes me laugh, and has a way with words that make me want him to talk forever hahaha

i don't suspect it to be even close to relationship status. but he has given me hope that there ARE decent, single guys out there (haha) and that i really shouldn't waste my precious time on pretty boys like "he who shall not be named".

i don't even have any complaints about work that i can blog about! haha i'm not like soooo happy that nothing cam make mad, but i'm just in a good space at this moment in time.

i will however, complain about the rain , even though i'm sitting on my balcony and enjoying the coolness it brings. only because i wanna go to town for lunch and my hair will be shit if i try running from taxi to taxi in this down pour lolz

peace out homies!

FUCK YOU MagnumMac NEWMARKET, AUCKLAND!!!!

i took my mac's into the apple shop here in hcmc & the happily transferred my entire iTunes library over, hooked me up with cs4 (photoshop only HAHA) for $20 USD, and then discounted me a wireless mouse for good measure. they were super apologetic about charging for installing photoshop, because the software usually comes free with their macs, but seeing as i didn't buy mine from them they added the fee. i was like, bro, don't worry, you don't know how much i luv you right now dahahahaha

so there you go. might be a third world communist country to some, but to me, it is so much more free than new zealand. so that is my "FUCK YOU AUCKLAND" for the day dahahahaha. i loathe the land of the long white cloud more and more each day i spend here. lolz

AUTO BOTS ROLL OUT...

haha this is my baby brother showing off his ink work. story goes like this- i bought him a pack of transformer stick on tattoos, and my step mum said he was allowed to go and put ONE on. he came outta the bathroom with the entire pack all over his body, including his forehead lmao he's so cute!

GRAD SWAG...

i got flowers!

my baby sister, me & my little brother after the ceremony...

me & mumzy outside nana's house... (note ther shoes that are MINE, but i can no longer wear because she's stretched them!!)

that's the only full-ish photo of my hott pink dress with the pockets that i heart!!

still can't believe this girl is only 17, majority of people who meet us instantly assume that she's the eldest haha and then almost wet themselves when i tell them i'm 23 lolz...

lonestar ribs are allllll good! yes, i know my necklace looks odd with my outfit but my papa bear found that stone @ the bay and then carved me out the necklace for my grad present...

digging into my little brothers dessert, and i hadn't even finished mine lolz. i think me and my sister were on to our 4th magarita slushy by then too.

VIEW FROM THE OFFICE...

H2 NOOOOOOOOOO...

aqua party in room 2106 hahaha

OUT & ABOUT ON A SUNDAY...

went to look for the underground for lunch and HELLO it's gone!!! who moved my underground? hahaha found out it's being relocated and will open in 3mths time... good one, i won't be here. so went to black cat for lunch which has the biggest burgers i've seen in a long time. i only had a bob cat burger, and struggled to finish that, so lord only knows how people eat the one that's as big as your face.

bought a pair of faux bans off a street vendor because i didn't bring ANY sunglasses over with me. they're not as good as the ones as i bought for j.skywalker 'coz the "rayban" logo is only printed on the side haha watched as tourists LICKED their stamps (everyone knows not to do that here 'coz you can only imagine what they put in the glue if they put malamine in babies milk powder lmao) meanwhile, i got out my gluestick (art student habits die hard) and glued all my stamps to my postcards.

went across to the cathedral to find out when easter mass is, since its good friday next week, but no-one could speak english haha figured out there's an english mass on sundays @ 9.30am... too early for me to wake up lolz

last photo is of the gorgeous frangipani tree outside my apartment building that i totally jizz off to everytime i walk past it. i especially love walking under it at night because you can smell all the delicious frangi's. off for a hot stone massage at the spa, just because i can haha.

peace!

LOVE, SEX & MAGIC - CEE CEE & J.T

DAYUM GIRL!!!! hahahaha not a big fan of the song, but will listen to it just to watch the video!

TURN ME ON WITH YOUR ELECTRIC FEEL..

i can't believe you gf is so young. like seriously. (i'm just finding a reason not to like her 'coz i'm not her haha) he said "i love you laydee *A*!!!" on his face book, but that's only because i left a really sarcastic comment about the people in his photo and he thought it was funny. i should print that i love you comment & send it to his gf dahahahahaha i'm a craze-o. (but if you saw him, better yet knew him, you would be too)

oh yeah, and on to some randomness- jermaine dupri did a remix to MGMT electric feel. hahaha it's ok, and sounds like he ran outta things to do during the rest of the song.

that's all!