HE TOLD ME TO WATCH THIS...

and now i have a problem. i just apologized to him and i was actually honest for once. and now he's replying and i feel like throwing up because i think i put too much of myself out there. now i think, he thinks, it's ok to be honest and/or deep & meaningful with me. it's not.

i wish i'd shut my mouth and things were like they used to be. fun, easy, not serious. what did i just do? what was i thinking? i've already been told not to go there, but no, didn't listen. if this fucks up, i really am the only one to blame, i think.

bring on the awkwardness between us from now on. damit.