FINAL POST FOR 2008...

this is what the world needs more of.

what a way to end off the year, and begin 2009 with.

after lunch at stage door with my nana, (the usual sweet chilli pasta salad & dutch hot chocolate for me lolz) and we were walking out, something caught my eye. just like the 3 wise men, i looked up (but the saw a star) and i saw this awesomeness.

thank you to whoever the artist is. you totally made my day. i wish i had the courage to scale up onto the regent roof and take advantage of the worlds coolest wall, but you've beaten me to it. and now you're my idol lolz!!!

i was gonna originally post about 'the dumb things that happened to me today' and 'the cool things that happened today', but nah. this is enough.

i do however, have to mention that running into j.skywalker & getting my 'black-man' card was gonna be on the 'cool things that happened to me today' list. (bro, it's friggin' awesome- thank you!)

enjoy new years eve kids, have fun, stay safe and god bless.

2009: bring it.

see you in '09!

THE 3 O'CLOCK (PM) RANT...

i am so over all this good girl gone bad shit. i liked her back when she had that beachy island girl from barbados feel going. that worked for me. i think that's why i've gone off her so much. when is she gonna stop looking like prince and get back on track? jeeez!!! hahaha i mean high 5 for being fashion foward, getting the chop & actually pulling it off. but i'm totally over it now. i was all for chri-anna when it was first rumoured they were together. now i'm sick and tired of the hype. jealous much? haha actually, nah not really. i don't even know them! how can i be jealous? anyways, while there are people starving and dying in the world i just wanted to have a rant about that.

me second rant is about my DVD player. i wish we had one of those $20 jobs from the warhouse or pack'n'save. coz then i'd be able to watch all the burnt DVDs i've borrowed from various people. but no, the DVD player is too bloody fussy & will only play the ones we've bought from the shop. i was just getting into to constintine (featuring keanu revees and all his hotness lolz) and then it starts skiping forward to every 20mins. soooo basically i watched the whole thing under 15mins. bastard. hahaha.

it's almost 3pm and i've just looked down and realised that i'm decked out in dickies lmao lucky i'm just chillaxing at home, 'coz wearing dickies shorts AND a t-shirt that has dickies unashamedly written across it is totally not the-go. lolz i love holidays. i hate the build up to new years. i loved dickies back in high-school (lolz) i love the fact i can still fit the clothes i wore in high-school. i hate the DVD player. i love carbs. i'm going to go eat some vogels toast and marmite. just because.

EATING BIG MACS AT 11PM...

it's been a tough day kids.

it began normally, i knew we were going down to wellyz again to visit my aunty who is in hospital. i got excited at the prospect of sneeking to the bay for a few nights & my mind was going in over-drive to figure out how to get there and back before heading to vietnam without anyone suspecting where i was.

i was gonna get my swim in the sea after all!

i got that warm buzzy feeling you get when something you want so bad starts falling into place. i was sooooo elated that i couldn't even eat lunch.

then the phone call came- "where are you guys? can you bring nana to the hospital now?". so as we hurridly made our way to the car, my plans to go to the bay slowly faded, along with that warm buzzy feeling i'd just worked myself up to obtain.

the thing with knowing that someone is gonna die is, that if you're not near it, you're sort of ok with it. it doesn't affect you as much because you're away from it all. it's still sucks and it's still sad though.

however, being in the presence of the person who, only days ago, was their usual bubbly self, walking around, and laughing, who is now drifiting in and out of consciousness, struggling to take breaths, and in constant pain... now that is completely different.

yes, it is fulfilling that you can be there to tell stories of the good times that have passed, and continue to make memories that others who should be there, (but aren't) could be making. yet, the other side to that is, that it's draining too. physically. emotionally.

the thing with [some] people in my family is that they either play it down to "oh it's just a cold" or refuse to admit that they're sick until it's too late and nothing can be done.

cancer is a bitch. and i don't wish it on the people that i loathe the most.

i worry about 4 of my other aunties who are also not well, but are playing it down to rally around this particular one who is 'knock, knock, knocking on heavans door'. two of them i'd be devastated to lose. serious. i owe so much of who i am to them. they've been the mothers i've never had. either when my own was, all over the south pacific tryna 'find herself', or when she decided to return but got her role confused and tried to be my sister and BFF, instead of parent.

i'm just tired. and i'm back to moping around feeling sorry for myself because i'm definitly not going to the bay, so i won't get my sneeky swim after all.

nothing festive or joyful about preparing for death in the new year.

(and yes, that is a picture of a cancer cell dividing)

GOOD TIMES HAD DURING '08...

Ragga Muffin: the girls had arrived back from christmas in raro & bought me back a huge bottle of 42 below. which i began drinking at 10am lmao ended up pouring the rest of into my watermelon that i took in with me & ate during the festival... of course everyone was passing around jays so i was pretty much waaaaasted by the end of the night

21st'z: I was invited to more 21st birthday parties this year, than when i was 21 myself lolz

Wellington Adventures: going to parties hosted by aotearoa hip-hop artists (playing with their mixing/recording equipment & getting told off lmao)

Brizzy-Vegas: heading over to Aussie for the first time to visit Rev. Braving the elements & getting totally wiped out by the waves @ Surfers Paradise in G.C... then getting blazed before catching the train back to Brisbane with beach hair hahaha fuck that was awesome.

Broncos vs. Rabbito's: going to my first live league game at Suncorp Stadium and getting so shit-faced during the game that I don't remember ANY of it & I had to watch it on TV at home afterwards lolz

Blues vs. Reds: seeing a few auckland blues rugby players in the city & one in particular stopping, but i gave him a filthy look & kept on walking HAHA ('coz he was sucha dick to us when they came here so i was like NAH!!!!!!)

Jets vs. Stars: remarking on how it was such a 'coincidence' that they were playing the same weekend i was in Auckland. (WHATEVER I PLANNED IT! LMAO) Having a few before the game, turning up slightly tipsy, getting free tickets, cheering for my team, seeing *he who shall not be named*, winning a basketball (HAHAHA) and returning my 10yr old cousin home just before midnight... opps!


Pandora Cocktail Party: pandora doesn't interest me at all, (i have one charm & that's as far as I'll go) but sampling all the drinks before they were served? hellz yea you know that intrested me lolz

3am bike ride around Henderson: ADK & I were drunk and thought it would be a really good idea to go for a tiki-tour round Waitakere City on bikes. I can't believe we didn't get puled up for riding all over the motorway in our pjs LMAOOOO!!!

Fuze Cafe: honest to god, they have the worlds best pancakes. I hate pancakes, but when I was staying in Auckland I walked here EVERY-SINGLE-DAY to have pancakes (it didn't hurt that the dude who made the coffee was cute either lolz) no wonder why I gained so much weight while I was there hahahaha

watching tee bags at a live poetry reading - AMAZING! (and then hitting the clubs afterwards!) i think we were in Vanilla.

more 21st's: where at one in particular,  I offered to hand out the cake and was slightly in-toxicated and DROPPED IT, then ran off LMAO (oooh, you can see the effects of the pancakes lolz)


More Basketball: going down to Wellyz & watching the game with Lady Soul... then meeting up with *he who shall not be named* the next day for a catch up lolz (and might i add, i've never seen or heard from him since... lmao)

watching tee bags battle this really talented (but really stuck-up) chick @ a poetry slam... it was rigged i tell you!!! tee bags should've won!!!

NBL Finals in Wellyz: being khai's "sugar mama" and begging her to come down to wellyz for the b-ball final lolz then unashamedly creating a perfect intro & photo op for myself with Carrie Bradshaw lmao (he was boring tho' so after 15mins i was over him)

Encouraging Graffiti: the time I suggested to everyone that they write their name on walls & windows in town (I always have a vivid handy, but was pretty pissed that i wrote my actual name lmao)

Photobooth Times: best when you're absolutely hung-over (more than likely still drunk at 9am lolz)

realizing my stencils on canvas instead of walls is quite nice too.

Chris Brown in concert.

Holiday Inn: the frosted bathroom window/wall kept us entertained for hours every time!

finally getting to go to tempst club... and then realizing that it wasn't that great lmao

every day spent with the bavi kids

I WENT TO WELLINGTON AND SAW...

ok, i have no idea what is up with those yucky black boarders lolz (i fell in love with that cat too!)

CHRISTMAS AT THE BEACH...

had a gorgeous christmas lunch in the sun, these random photos were taken in wellyz (oriental parade) on boxing day. you can tell that 4 years of studying photography was put into good use composition wise HAHAHAHAHA!!! i was staggering along after a huge lunch @ parade cafe, not to mention i was wearing all black (totally inappropriate lolz)

i can't ever imagine having a white christmas. why would you want to when the weather is this good? pohutukawa's in full bloom is so pretty. i'm stoked it's all over though. i really hate christmas lolz i can't stand when adults ask "was santa good to you this christmas?" it makes me wanna spew in my own mouth. why the hell would i want a strange white man in a red suit in my house giving me gifts?! hahaha i was never bought up to believe in santa. my family were like, hellz no are we giving someone else credit for all the cool stuff we bought you hahahahahaha.

i reckon christmas is more for little kiddies, which i'm ok with. but for adults? it's just a time to get into debt haha. (not that i did, since i had no job for the first time, so that was my excuse to not give gifts) i didn't even have any art work to give away. unless people wanted essays on postmordernism and how it affects my personal practice. that would be lovely summer reading... (or good to fuel the bon-fire haha)

and then comes new years. i'm not going to the bay anymore, 'coz i can't get back for my flight so i'm staying here. GAYBO! i vowed last year after being a dutiful granddaughter and having a quiet one with my nana (it was the first for her without my granddad) that i'd never spend another new years of my life at home. and HELLO, that's exactly where i'll be. oh well, i'll just go to bed early to get it over and done with haha.

i don't really care. i'm going to VIET-freakin'-NAM on the 3rd of jan, with a week in india during january and a week in bangkok (my fave city in the world) in feb, and then back with money in the baaaaaaaank, for kings of leon in march. yusssss!

HE TOA TAUMATA RAU...

i know it's on thursday and all, but seriously. this is my top christmas present for 2008. i'm not too sure if i'll get a makutu but these a friggin' awesome! nothing can top j.skywalkers present.

*the title of this post is a whakatauki (maori proverb) that translates to "bravery has many resting places".

CAPITAL CITY DIDN'T LET ME DOWN...

OMG! OOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGG!!!! Loaded stock Married to the Mob!!! oh how i've fallen in love with wellington all over again. god i missed native soup (NOT native "keeping it") while i was in loaded, oohing and ahhing over all their stock. a pang (yes, i just said "pang") of sadness washed over me as i longed for my native soup store that has ceased to exist. nothing will compare, but loaded filled that empty void with in me (for a good 45 mins).
i went spastic when i found the married to the mob merchandise hahahaha i tried on the tights (that looked ridiculous), so i was pretty certain that no-one would warm to them here & i'd be a laughing stock.. but i did consider getting them just because lolz (but i didn't)... mumzy even offered to buy me a MOB t-shirt but she'd switched to 'tryna buy your affection' mode and even tho i really really reeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaalllllllllllllly wanted one, i declined the offer. i just think it kinda sucks that she feels the need to resort to that. i'm 23, not 3.

OTAKI PUBLIC TOILETS...

it smelled like wee, had no hand dryer or hand towels, no soap, but heaps of toilet paper.

rating: 2 stars

OTAKI BP STATION...

it's been renovated so it came as suprise to me when i used it today. nice warm water, soap, and the hand dryer was powerful. (like totally haha) i recommend you stop there and use it lolz

rating: 3 1/2 stars

FINALLY ARRIVED TODAY...

$300 later, and i signed off for it this morning. tickets paid for today before we went to down to wellyz. one visa down (5 working days my ass... i got it in 3 hours!) and one more to go tomorrow. YAY! i'm going on big plane! hahahahaha