WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF IN 2014?

i just sat through a 2 hour discussion. no, i didn't say much, so it wasn't a discussion. lecture? hmmm. maybe. i wasn't being told what to do exactly so that wasn't what it was. it was like 2hrs of being given advice on where i'm going in my life. i've got mixed feelings about this.

side one:

WTF. thanks alot for crushing everything i had planned on doing. i don't have any motivation to do shit anymore. why did i came here again? i can't believe you they just openly said i wasn't academic & would struggle through teachers college. what kind of 23 year old has a "5 year plan" anyway? why can't you just understand that all i want to do is hang out with my friends, chillax on the beach, do nothing all day? just go with the flow, see where life leads me??? why do you think i can't handle, and won't make it? why the hell do you guys over analyze everything. everyone. over think things? why are you guys usually right. no, i don't want to 'be one step ahead' and find out what the readings that i'd be doing next year are and read them. this is too hard. why do you guys expect me to think as far ahead as you? why can't i just enjoy reading glossy mags and mindless shopping? i bet when you were my age, if someone sat you down and said the same thing you'd tell them to fuck off. do i really come off that weak? i wish i was at home.


side two:

how can i use all this advice to my advantage? could i really work it? where do i want to be in 2014?

at the moment side one is winning, and i've retreated to my room. i don't think i'll get up for dinner either. i just want to wallow in my self pity for abit. they're down with politics, and i'm not so when they were using 'right wing' and 'left wing' examples, both wings flapped and flew right over my head.

i could go two ways- be el depresso about my situation, or man up, take the advice and run with it. i'm just too lazy to do that though. why the hell is life as hard as finding desiccated coconut in this part of the world?! ok, it's almost 3pm, i'm gonna go close my eyes and hopefullly not wake up until 2014 hahaha