Sunday, May 3, 2009
AND A LITTLE GIRL WAITS...
this is getting ridiculous. i just need to stop. we don't even go out. this could be low-key what is considered "internet dating" but i have too much self respect for that. he's over there, i'm over here. thank god we actually know each other in real life, or else it WOULD be internet dating. that is not even sad. it's lower than sad. it's lower than loser. it's lower than sad loser. i don't know what i want from this, or even if it will go anywhere when i get back. unfortunately he knows exactly what he wants, and isn't backing down. this is not good. i haven't signed on to skype all day, but i have been hovering over my inbox all day. (he wrote me this avo.) i replied (of course!) and suggested we not skype for a couple of days. and now i'm making excuses to check my inbox (considering it's almost 1am on a saturday/sunday i know he won't reply 'till tomorrow). i'm hoping he'll say yes to my proposition, (in a plan to ween ourselves off each other... ok more me off him) yet, i sorta want him to say no haha. i'm turning into one of those disgusting needy girls that i loathe. this is why i haven't had a friend boy in so long.
to keep me occupied, i bought the box set of the entire 2 seasons of gossip girl. i cannot wait until i get home to get my winter swag up and going. actually, this leads me to another thing- I CANNOT WAIT TO GET HOME. i love being overseas, i love working and living here without a doubt, but shit. i miss the people back home so much. 2 of my BFF's have re-located back to p-city in a random turn of events for them both, so of course i wanna be with them. not for ever, hellz no haha but they're back for a bit, and i wanna be there too.
can't wait to get back for Little J's big birthday bash. Me & Rev are gearing up to show those island girls how it's really done, how it should be, and how they will never be hahaha (man i'm a fucken bitch lmao) but when it comes to them, this is the only place i can vent what i really think about them. island girls are vicious. (serious) so it's best to keep a low-profile and be diplomatic at all times. but hey, i'm only human. of course i have my own opinions formed in my mind about them. i just don't tell anyone haha
ok, sweet, i've gotta get back to gossip girl. haha
x o x o (cheese!)
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