“Love, like death, changes everything.”

today my nana emailed me to say that she had to the cat down this morning. we've been O.G'z at #21 for the last 13 years. so this is to you leni, you were the runt of the litter, i saved yo' ass because everyone told me not to pick you 'coz you were so sickly looking. but you were the only 'coloured' one amongst all the rangas and i totally had to have you. you defied death more than 9 times and cost us a fortune hahaha but you saved me too. i might of looked insane-o talking to my cat, but meh! the shit you'd have on me if you were able to tell the secrets i told you. thanks for your service fat girl. i'll miss you, even though sometimes you annoyed the shit outta me haha

now my hamil-tron plans are *pending*.. because mumzy is just fucken useless, i am considering closer to home options to do post grad teaching, so i can keep an eye on my nana. she's basically my everything, so yea. i don't have to, i haven't been asked to, or made to, or guilt tripped into doing it... i want to.
she raised me. (kind of still is haha)
so what is a year of my life compared to all of hers that she's given to me? not really a difficult decision, but just don't want to set it in concrete yet. more over, if these guys decide to buy a house in nz (most probs palmy.. and it won't be a crap one either) i am more than likely going to live in it. soooo even though that would mean another fucken year in palmy, as long as i'm out of park road, i'll be sweet as. i'm kinda putting the pressure on these guys to come back to nz in july and look for my (hahaha) opps i mean their damn house before i go to samoa...
which by the way, is sort of non-existent at the moment because i have not heard from my aunty AT ALL for the last 2 months. yet my nana (the other one) was saying that she was tryna hunt me down?! not cool. it looks as if my sister will be over there before me, and she was the one who was meant to be visiting ME! (small gutted)

as for my friend boy... 12 days to go hahaha (HE has the countdown going on NOT me!!!) should be interesting to see where this goes when i get back.

looking forward to heading back to palmy, but not at the same time.

miss my cat. small sad that i didn't get to say goodbye. (just like my granddad) and she got put down on the anniversary of when mumzys younger brother died (randomly in his sleep... a month after his 30th) so today will be remembered for the loss of 2 of our family members.

peace!